Thursday, September 17, 2009
I am in no way saying I have it worse than others, not by a long shot. But, dernit...what I wouldn't do for a break. Every time we get semi-good news about finances, something else comes up and bites us on the butt. EVERYTIME!!!
There is something about having a career that I have always wanted and not being able to work. I am sure there are others out there in many different professions that were told, at some point in school, "Oh! You'll ALWAYS have a job in THAT field!"
I call shananigans!
What happened to funding education systems so that kids have better teachers, better schools, more materials, better curriculum, smaller class sizes, etc etc etc ????? How on God's green Earth can we ever hope to have a better society in our country when kids are in overcrowded, unsafe schools with not enough teachers. Especially when the teachers that are there are so over worked, underpaid, and unappreciated that the districts are lucky if all the good ones don't jump ship within 5 years, leaving just the ones that are basically placeholders.
RAGE RAGE GRIPE MOAN WHINE GROAN RAGE!!!!
ok, I feel a little better. I need sake, cuddling, good tv and rest...oh yeah, and a fulltime job that pays my bills. I'll make it, WE will make it, but dagummit, its not going to be fun, I just don't know how to make things seem not-so-sucky right now.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
7/365: Early morning, Colorado sun over the range. The housing ends there on our street.
8/365: Same postion, 180 degrees, our new house.
9/365: Me, early morning sun on my face...
One thing I really like about myself? My eyes. Oh, and my natural bindi!
Sunday, September 6, 2009
I am going to eat my honeydew melon and take something to relieve the pain and try to enjoy the fact that it is quiet here, mom took the kids to church since I can't.
I hope to be back up and running this afternoon, at least partially.
Friday, September 4, 2009
Says my 12 yr old son upon finding out that the mammoth model his mamah bought him and his brothers was missing a few important pieces...did I mention she got it at our fav local thrift store?
"Where's mah leggggz?!?"
Thursday, September 3, 2009
I actually had a really easy sub day with a great group of gifted 6th and 8th graders, but was still super tired by the time I came home. The smell of the jambalaya made me wish it was a chilly, gray fall evening instead of a warm, indian summer one, but it was still nice. As tired as I was, I tried, halfheartedly, to nap for 30 minutes or so just to recharge, but with 4 kids home and no husband to divert their attention from me, the catnap got postponed.
I mentioned before that I love fresh, local produce and got really happy when I found okra at the farmer's market here. Now, I'll be honest, I haven't made fried okra in a long time, and was kind of procrastinating making it because i didn't want to mess it up. I figured it would go well with the stew and some warm, sweet cornbread.
So what did I do different today? I didn't try to do it all myself, which is my normal modus operandi. I called my lazybones daughter from the living room and had her prep, season, bread and fry the okra. I must say, she did a fair job! It was really nice having her in the kitchen, not just to help take some of the work, but just having her around. I am not quite sure why, but there's been a long time that I haven't known how to be around my kids unless I am yelling at them. That's not fair to anyone, no matter how obnoxious they can be. Overall, my kids are amazing, especially Jess. She most definitely has her moments on annoying 13 yr old girl-ness, but she's really grown up a lot the past few years, and is pretty amazing...including all her weirdness, because that's who she is. Honestly, anyone that knew me at or around her age will understand how I really can't say anything much about her being an oddball. That apple certainly didn't fall from from the tree.
So, my take from today? Every now and then, eat comfort food, even if it is fattening as all get out, take a few minutes to just enjoy the kiddos, even when things are difficult...and Let Go, just...not hold on so tight that things slip through my fingers. Love totally, even when its hard to see past the frustrations.
Now to see whether or not I can keep it up without it wearing me down, considering how different it is from my normal state of mind the last few years.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
I wanna be that silly...
She has more energy and spunk than anyone I have ever met, and she has 6 kids...granted the youngest is 22, soooo maybe in...17 years I'll feel like that...gah, I hope it doesn't take that long.
On a side note to that outrageous announcement; apparently while she was in the front office checking in, several of the students that I had earlier in the day came up to her and RAVED about me....me...Wow. The thing that stuck out the most to them? That I didn't talk down to them like they were idiots, that I wasn't scared of them, and that I actually TALKED to them, period. I still get amazed, sometimes, about how so many kids just want someone to treat them like a human being, like they matter.
Why is that such a rare thing to find in teachers, sub and full-time, that students go gaga over an hour with someone that is just THERE to them?
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Tuesday, Sept 1, 2009:
-No sub call today, meh
-Not enough sleep last night, bleh
-Morning meeting at my son's middle school to figure out how we can help him care enough about anything to take the initiative to use his God given tools to succeed like every knows he can, gah.
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOORED all day.
No kids, hubby home on day off, no money to go have a date lunch or anything and the usual 5 hour maintenance on WoW turned into an ALL DAY server down-nothing to do, AMG I want to stab myself in the eye waste of a day. Sooo, sweet geeky hubby decided (30 minutes before the first kids get home, let me add) to try and build me a better computer from his parts that he just upgraded from.......
So, an hour later, 3 computer towers, and all the guts to match....and we end up putting my puter back together just like it was because my power supply cord was too short for the new motherboard >.<
So, why am I posting about potatoes?
First applicant scared me a little....